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Also by Nicholas Sparks The Notebook Message in a Bottle A Walk to Remember The Rescue A Bend in the Road Nights in Rodanthe The Guardian The Wedding Three Weeks with My Brother (with Micah Sparks) True Believer At First Sight NICHOLAS SPARKS …… Z…… This book is a work of ? ction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination or are used ? ctitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is coincidental. Copyright © 2006 by Nicholas Sparks All rights reserved. Except as permitted under the U. S. Copyright Act of 1976, no part of this publication may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted in any form or by any means, or stored in a data base or retrieval system, without the prior written permission of the publisher. Warner Books Hachette Book Group USA 1271 Avenue of the Americas New York, NY 10020 Visit our Web site at www. HachetteBookGroupUSA. com. First eBook Edition: October 2006 Warner Books and the “W” logo are trademarks of Time Warner Inc. or an af? liated company. Used under license by Hachette Book Group USA, which is not af? liated with Time Warner Inc. ISBN: 0-7595-6896-0 1. Soldiers—Fiction. . Long-distance relationships—Fiction. I. Title. Special Scholastic Hardcover Edition ISBN-13: 978-0-446-58094-6 ISBN-10: 0 446 58094 5 ISBN 10 0-446-58094-5 For Micah and Christine Acknowledgments Ak ld …. Z…. his novel was both a joy and a challenge to write; a joy because it’s my hope that the characters re? ect the honor and integrity of those who serve in the military, and a challenge because . . . well, to be completely honest, I ? nd that every novel I write is challenging. There are those people, however, who make the challenge that much easier, and without further ado, I’d like to thank them. To Cat, my wife and the woman I love with all my heart. Thanks for your patience, babe. To Miles, Ryan, Landon, Lexie, and Savannah, my children. Thanks for your endless enthusiasm, kids. To Theresa Park, my agent. Thanks for everything. To Jamie Raab, my editor. Thanks for your kindness and wisdom. To David Young, the new CEO of Hachette Book Group USA, Maureen Egen, Jennifer Romanello, Harvey-Jane Kowal, Shannon O’Keefe, Sharon Krassney, Abby Koons, Denise DiNovi, Edna Farley, Howie Sanders, David Park, Flag, Scott Schwimer, Lynn Harris, Mark Johnson . . I’m thankful for your friendship. To my fellow coaches and athletes on the New Bern High track team (which won both the indoor and outdoor North Carolina T viii Nicholas Sparks State Championships): Dave Simpson, Philemon Gray, Karjuan Williams, Darryl Reynolds, Anthony Hendrix, Eddie Armstrong, Andrew Hendrix, Mike Weir, Dan Castelow, Marques Moore, Raishad Dobie, Darryl Barnes, Jayr Whit? eld, Kelvin Hardesty, Julian Carter, and Brett Whitney . . . what a season, guys! Prologue l …. Z…. Lenoir, 2006 6 hat does it mean to truly love another? There was a time in my life when I thought I knew the answer: It meant that I’d care for Savannah more deeply than I cared for myself and that we’d spend the rest of our lives together. It wouldn’t have taken much. She once told me that the key to happiness was achievable dreams, and hers were nothing out of the ordinary. Marriage, family . . . the basics. It meant I’d have a steady job, the house with the white picket fence, and a minivan or SUV big enough to haul our kids to school or to the dentist or off to soccer practice or piano recitals. Two or three kids, she was never clear on that, but my hunch is that when the time came, she would have suggested that we let nature take its course and allow God to make the decision. She was like that—religious, I mean—and I suppose that was part of the reason I fell for her. But no matter what was going on in our lives, I could imagine lying beside her in bed at the end of the day, holding her while we talked and laughed, lost in each other’s arms. It doesn’t sound so far-fetched, right? When two people love each other? That’s what I thought, too. And while part of me still W 2 Nicholas Sparks ants to believe it’s possible, I know it’s not going to happen. When I leave here again, I’ll never come back. For now, though, I’ll sit on the hillside overlooking her ranch and wait for her to appear. She won’t be able to see me, of course. In the army, you learn to blend into your surroundings, and I learned well, because I had no desire to die in some backward foreign dump in the middle of the Iraqi desert. But I had to come back to this small North Carolina mountain town to ? nd out what happened. When a person sets a thing in motion, there’s a feeling of unease, almost regret, until you learn the truth. But of this I am certain: Savannah will never know I’ve been here today. Part of me aches at the thought of her being so close yet so untouchable, but her story and mine are different now. It wasn’t easy for me to accept this simple truth, because there was a time when our stories were the same, but that was six years and two lifetimes ago. There are memories for both of us, of course, but I’ve learned that memories can have a physical, almost living presence, and in this, Savannah and I are different as well. If hers are stars in the nighttime sky, mine are the haunted empty spaces in between. And unlike her, I’ve been burdened by questions I’ve asked myself a thousand times since the last time we were together. Why did I do it? And would I do it again? It was I, you see, who ended it. On the trees surrounding me, the leaves are just beginning their slow turn toward the color of ? re, glowing as the sun peeks over the horizon. Birds have begun their morning calls, and the air is perfumed with the scent of pine and earth; different from the brine and salt of my hometown. In time, the front door cracks open, and it’s then that I see her. Despite the distance between us, I ? d myself holding my breath as she steps into the dawn. She stretches before descending the front steps and heads around the side. Beyond her, the horse pasture shimmers like a green ocean, and she passes through the gate that leads toward DEAR JOHN 3 it. A horse calls out a greeting, as does another, and my ? rst thought is that Savannah seems too small to be moving so easily among them. But she was always comfortable with horses, and they were comfortable with her. A half dozen nibble on grass near the fence post, mainly quarter horses, and Midas, her whitesocked black Arabian, stands off to one side. I rode with her once, luckily without injury, and as I was hanging on for dear life, I remember thinking that she looked so relaxed in the saddle that she could have been watching television. Savannah takes a moment to greet Midas now. She rubs his nose while she whispers something, she pats his haunches, and when she turns away, his ears prick up as she heads toward the barn. She vanishes, then emerges again, carrying two pails—oats, I think. She hangs the pails on two fence posts, and a couple of the horses trot toward them. When she steps back to make room, I see her hair ? tter in the breeze before she retrieves a saddle and bridle. While Midas eats, she readies him for her ride, and a few minutes later she’s leading him from the pasture, toward the trails in the forest, looking exactly as she did six years ago. I know it isn’t true—I saw her up close last year and noticed the ? rst ? ne lines beginning to form around her eyes—but the prism through which I view her remains for me unchanging. To me, she will always be twenty-one and I will always be twenty-three. I’d been stationed in Germany; I had yet to go to Fallujah or Baghdad or receive her letter, which I read in the railroad station in Samawah in the initial weeks of the campaign; I had yet to return home from the events that changed the course of my life. Now, at twenty-nine, I sometimes wonder about the choices I’ve made. The army has become the only life I know. I don’t know whether I should be pissed or pleased about that fact; most of the time, I ? nd myself going back and forth, depending on the day. When people ask, I tell them I’m a grunt, and I mean it. I still live on base in Germany, I have maybe a thousand dollars in 4 Nicholas Sparks savings, and I haven’t been on a date in years. I don’t surf much anymore even on leave, but on my days off I ride my Harley north or south, wherever my mood strikes me. The Harley was the single best thing I’ve ever bought for myself, though it cost a fortune over there. It suits me, since I’ve become something of a loner. Most of my buddies have left the service, but I’ll probably get sent back to Iraq in the next couple of months. At least, those are the rumors around base. When I ? rst met Savannah Lynn Curtis—to me, she’ll always be Savannah Lynn Curtis—I could never have predicted my life would turn out the way it has or believed I’d make the army my career. But I did meet her; that’s the thing that makes my current life so strange. I fell in love with her when we were together, then fell deeper in love with her in the years we were apart. Our story has three parts: a beginning, a middle, and an end. And although this is the way all stories unfold, I still can’t believe that ours didn’t go on forever. I re? ect on these things, and as always, our time together comes back to me. I ? nd myself remembering how it began, for now these memories are all I have left. PA R T I A …. Z…. …. Z…. One Wilmington, 2000 y name is John Tyree. I was born in 1977, and I grew up in Wilmington, North Carolina, a city that proudly boasts the largest port in the state as well as a long and vibrant history but now strikes me more as a city that came about by accident. Sure, the weather was great and the beaches perfect, but it wasn’t ready for the wave of Yankee retirees up north who wanted someplace cheap to spend their golden years. The city is located on a relatively thin spit of land bounded by the Cape Fear River on one side and the ocean on the other. Highway 17—which leads to Myrtle Beach and Charleston—bisects the town and serves as its major road. When I was a kid, my dad and I could drive from the historic district near the Cape Fear River to Wrightsville Beach in ten minutes, but so many stoplights and shopping centers have been added that it can now take an hour, especially on the weekends, when the tourists come ? ooding in. Wrightsville Beach, located on an island just off the coast, is on the northern end of f Wilmington and far and away one of the most popular beaches in the state. The homes along the dunes are ridiculously expensive, and most of them are rented out all summer long. The Outer M 8 Nicholas Sparks Banks may have more romantic appeal because of their isolation and wild horses and that ? ight that Orville and Wilbur were famous for, but let me tell you, most people who go to the beach on vacation feel most at home when they can ? nd a McDonald’s or Burger King nearby, in case the little ones aren’t too fond of f the local fare, and want more than a couple of choices when it comes to evening activities. Like all cities, Wilmington is rich in places and poor in others, and since my dad had one of the steadiest, solid-citizen jobs on the planet—he drove a mail delivery route for the post of? e—we did okay. Not great, but okay. We weren’t rich, but we lived close enough to the rich area for me to attend one of the best high schools in the city. Unlike my friends’ homes, though, our house was old and small; part of the porch had begun to sag, but the yard was its saving grace. There was a big oak tree in the backyard, and when I was eight years old, I built a tree house with scraps of wood I collected from a construction site. My dad didn’t help me with the project (if he hit a nail with a hammer, it could honestly be called an accident); it was the same summer I taught myself to surf. I suppose I should have realized then how different I was from my dad, but that just shows how little you know about life when you’re a kid. My dad and I were as different as two people could possibly be. Where he was passive and introspective, I was always in motion and hated to be alone; while he placed a high value on education, school for me was like a social club with sports added in. He had poor posture and tended to shuf? e when he walked; I bounced from here to there, forever asking him to time how long it took me to run to the end of the block and back. I was taller than him by the time I was in eighth grade and could beat him in armwrestling a year later. Our physical features were completely different, too. While he had sandy hair, hazel eyes, and freckles, I had brown hair and eyes, and my olive skin would darken to a deep tan by May. Our differences struck some of our neighbors as DEAR JOHN 9 odd, which made sense, I suppose, considering that he’d raised me by himself. As I grew older, I sometimes heard them whispering about the fact that my mom had run off when I was less than a year old. Though I later suspected my mom had met someone else, my dad never con? rmed this. All he’d say was that she’d realized she made a mistake in getting married so young, and that she wasn’t ready to be a mother. He neither heaped scorn on her nor praised her, but he made sure that I included her in my prayers, no matter where she was or what she’d done. “You remind me of f her,” he’d say sometimes. To this day, I’ve never spoken a single word to her, nor do I have any desire to do so. I think my dad was happy. I phrase it like this because he seldom showed much emotion. Hugs and kisses were a rarity for me growing up, and when they did happen, they often struck me as lifeless, something he did because he felt he was supposed to, not because he wanted to. I know he loved me by the way he devoted himself to my care, but he was forty-three when he had me, and part of me thinks my dad would have been better suited to being a monk than a parent. He was the quietest man I’ve ever known. He asked few questions about what was going on in my life, and while he rarely grew angry, he rarely joked, either. He lived for routine. He cooked me scrambled eggs, toast, and bacon every single morning and listened as I talked about school over a dinner he’d prepared as well. He scheduled visits to the dentist two months in advance, paid his bills on Saturday morning, did the laundry on Sunday afternoon, and left the house every morning at exactly 7:35 a. m. He was socially awkward and spent long hours alone every day, dropping packages and bunches of mail into the mailboxes along his route. He didn’t date, nor did he spend weekend nights playing poker with his buddies; the telephone could stay silent for weeks. When it did ring, it was either a wrong number or a telemarketer. I know how hard it must have been for him to raise me on his own, but he never complained, even when I disappointed him. 10 Nicholas Sparks I spent most of my evenings alone. With the duties of the day ? nally completed, my dad would head to his den to be with his coins. That was his one great passion in life. He was most content while sitting in his den, studying a coin dealer newsletter nicknamed the Greysheet and trying to ? gure out the next coin he should add to his collection. Actually, it was my grandfather who originally started the coin collection. My grandfather’s hero was a man named Louis Eliasberg, a Baltimore ? nancier who is the only person to have assembled a complete collection of United States coins, including all the various dates and mint marks. His collection rivaled, if not surpassed, the collection at the Smithsonian, and after the death of my grandmother in 1951, my grandfather became trans? xed by the idea of building a collection with his son. During the summers, my grandfather and dad would travel by train to the various mints to collect the new coins ? sthand or visit various coin shows in the Southeast. In time, my grandfather and dad established relationships with coin dealers across the country, and my grandfather spent a fortune over the years trading up and improving the collection. Unlike Louis Eliasberg, however, my grandfather wasn’t rich—he owned a general store in Burgaw that went out of business when the Piggly Wiggly opened its doors across town—and never had a chance at matching Eliasberg’s collection. Even so, every extra dollar went into coins. My grandfather wore the same jacket for thirty years, drove the same car his entire life, and I’m pretty sure my dad went to work for the postal service instead of heading off to college because there wasn’t a dime left over to pay for anything beyond a high school education. He was an odd duck, that’s for sure, as was my dad. Like father, like son, as the old saying goes. When the old man ? nally passed away, he speci? ed in his will that his house be sold and the money used to purchase even more coins, which was exactly what my dad probably would have done anyway. By the time my dad inherited the collection, it was already quite valuable. When in? ation went through the roof and gold hit DEAR JOHN 11 $850 an ounce, it was worth a small fortune, more than enough for my frugal dad to retire a few times over and more than it would be worth a quarter century later. But neither my grandfather nor my dad had been into collecting for the money; they were in it for the thrill of the hunt and the bond it created between them. There was something exciting about searching long and hard for a speci? c coin, ? nally locating it, then wheeling and dealing to get it for the right price. Sometimes a coin was affordable, other times it wasn’t, but each and every piece they added was a treasure. My dad hoped to share the same passion with me, including the sacri? ce it required. Growing up, I had to sleep with extra blankets in the winter, and I got a single pair of new shoes every year; there was never money for my clothes, unless they came from the Salvation Army. My dad didn’t even own a camera. The only picture ever taken of us was at a coin show in Atlanta. A dealer snapped it as we stood before his booth and sent it to us. For years it was perched on my dad’s desk. In the photo, my dad had his arm draped over my shoulder, and we were both beaming. In my hand, I was holding a 1926-D buffalo nickel in gem condition, a coin that my dad had just purchased. It was among the rarest of all buffalo nickels, and we ended up eating hot dogs and beans for a month, since it cost more than he’d expected. But I didn’t mind the sacri? ces—for a while, anyway. When my dad started talking to me about coins—I must have been in the ? rst or second grade at the time—he spoke to me like an equal. Having an adult, especially your dad, treat you like an equal is a heady thing for any young child, and I basked in the attention, absorbing the information. In time, I could tell you how many Saint-Gaudens double eagles were minted in 1927 as compared with 1924 and why an 1895 Barber dime minted in New Orleans was ten times more valuable than the same coin minted in the same year in Philadelphia. I still can, by the way. Yet unlike my dad, I eventually began to grow out of my passion for collecting. It was all my dad seemed able to talk about, and after six or seven 2 Nicholas Sparks years of weekends spent with him instead of friends, I wanted out. Like most boys, I started to care about other things: sports and girls and cars and music, primarily, and by fourteen, I was spending little time at home. My resentment began to grow as well. Little by little, I began to notice differences in the way we lived when I compared myself with most of my friends. While they had money to spend to go to the movies or buy a stylish pair of sunglasses, I found myself scrounging for quarters in the couch to buy myself a burger at McDonald’s. More than a few of my friends received cars for their sixteenth birthday; my dad gave me an 1883 Morgan silver dollar that had been minted in Carson City. Tears in our worn couch were covered by a blanket, and we were the only family I knew who didn’t have cable television or a microwave oven. When our refrigerator broke down, he bought a used one that was the world’s most awful shade of green, a color that matched nothing else in the kitchen. I was embarrassed at the thought of having friends come over, and I blamed my dad for that. I know it was a pretty crappy way to feel—if the lack of money bothered me so much, I could have mowed lawns or worked odd jobs, for instance—but that’s the way it was. I was as blind as a snail and dumb as a camel, but even if I told you I regret my immaturity now, I can’t undo the past. My dad sensed that something was changing, but he was at a loss as to what to do about us. He tried, though, in the only way he knew how, the only way his father knew. He talked about coins—it was the one topic he could discuss with ease—and continued to cook my breakfasts and dinners; but our estrangement grew worse over time. At the same time, I pulled away from the friends I’d always known. They were breaking into cliques, based primarily on what movies they were going to see or the latest shirts they bought from the mall, and I found myself on the outside looking in. Screw them, I thought. In high school, there’s always a place for everyone, and I began falling in with the wrong sort of crowd, a crowd that didn’t give a damn about anything, DEAR JOHN 13 which left me not giving a damn, either. I began to cut classes and smoke and was suspended for ? ghting on three occasions. I gave up sports, too. I’d played football and basketball and run track until I was a sophomore, and though my dad sometimes asked how I did when I got home, he seemed uncomfortable if I went into detail, since it was obvious he didn’t know a thing about sports. He’d never been on a team in his life. He showed up for a single basketball game during my sophomore year. He sat in the stands, an odd balding guy wearing a worn sport jacket and socks that didn’t match. Though he wasn’t obese, his pants nipped at the waist, making him look as if he were three months pregnant, and I knew I wanted nothing to do with him. I was embarrassed by the sight of him, and after the game, I avoided him. I’m not proud of myself for that, but that’s who I was. Things got worse. During my senior year, my rebellion reached a high point. My grades had been slipping for two years, more from laziness and lack of care than intelligence (I like to think), and more than once my dad caught me sneaking in late at night with booze on my breath. I was escorted home by the police after being found at a party where drugs and drinking were evident, and when my dad grounded me, I stayed at a friend’s house for a couple of f weeks after raging at him to mind his own business. He said nothing upon my return; instead, scrambled eggs, toast, and bacon were on the table in the mornings as usual. I barely passed my classes, and I suspect the school let me graduate simply because it wanted me out of there. I know my dad was worried, and he would sometimes, in his own shy way, broach the subject of college, but by then I’d made up my mind not to go. I wanted a job, I wanted a car, I wanted those material things I’d lived eighteen years without. I said nothing to him about it one way or the other until the summer after graduation, but when he realized I hadn’t even applied to junior college, he locked himself in his den for the rest of f the night and said nothing to me over our eggs and bacon the next morning. Later that evening, he tried to engage me in another 14 Nicholas Sparks discussion about coins, as if grasping for the companionship that had somehow been lost between us. “Do you remember when we went to Atlanta and you were the one who found that buffalo head nickel we’d been looking for for years? he started. “The one where we had our picture taken? I’ll never forget how excited you were. It reminded me of my father and me. ” I shook my head, all the frustration of life with my dad coming to the surface. “I’m sick and tired of hearing about coins! ” I shouted at him. “I never want to hear about them again! You should sell the damn collection and do something else. Anything else. ” My dad said nothing, but to this day I’ll never forget his pained expression when at last he turned and trudged back to his den. I’d hurt him, and though I told myself I hadn’t wanted to, deep down I knew I was lying to myself. From then on my dad rarely brought up the subject of coins again. Nor did I. It became a yawning gulf f between us, and it left us with nothing to say to each other. A few days later, I realized that the only photograph of us was gone as well, as if he believed that even the slightest reminder of coins would offend me. At the time, it probably would have, and even though I assumed that he’d thrown it away, the realization didn’t bother me at all. Growing up, I’d never considered entering the military. Despite the fact that eastern North Carolina is one of the most militarily dense areas of the country—there are seven bases within a few hours’ driving time from Wilmington—I used to think that military life was for losers. Who wanted to spend his life getting ordered around by a bunch of crew-cut ? unkies? Not me, and aside from the ROTC guys, not many people in my high school, either. Instead, most of the kids who’d been good students headed off to the University of North Carolina or North Carolina State, while the kids who hadn’t been good students stayed behind, bumming around from one lousy job to the next, drinking beer and hanging DEAR JOHN 15 out, and pretty much avoiding anything that might require a shred of responsibility. I fell into the latter category. In the couple of years after graduation, I went through a succession of jobs, working as a busboy at Outback Steakhouse, tearing ticket stubs at the local movie theater, loading and unloading boxes at Staples, cooking pancakes at Waf? e House, and working as a cashier at a couple of tourist places that sold crap to the out-of-towners. I spent every dime I earned, had zero illusions about eventually working my way up the ladder to management, and ended up getting ? red from every job I had. For a while, I didn’t care. I was living my life. I was big into sur? ng late and sleeping in, and since I was still living at home, none of f my income was needed for things like rent or food or insurance or preparing for a future. Besides, none of my friends was doing any better than I was. I don’t remember being particularly unhappy, but after a while I just got tired of my life. Not the sur? ng part—in 1996, Hurricanes Bertha and Fran slammed into the coast, and those were some of the best waves in years—but hanging out at Leroy’s bar afterward. I began to realize that every night was the same. I’d be drinking beers and bump into someone I’d known from high school, and they’d ask what I was doing and I’d tell them, and they’d tell me what they were doing, and it didn’t take a genius to ? gure out we were both on the fast track to nowhere. Even if they had their own place, which I didn’t, I never believed them when they told me they liked their job as ditch digger or window washer or Porta Potti hauler, because I knew full well that none of those were the kinds of occupations they’d grown up dreaming about. I might have been lazy in the classroom, but I wasn’t stupid. I dated dozens of women during that period. At Leroy’s, there were always women. Most were forgettable relationships. I used women and allowed myself to be used and always kept my feelings to myself. Only my relationship with a girl named Lucy lasted more than a few months, and for a short time before we inevitably 16 Nicholas Sparks drifted apart, I thought I was in love with her. She was a student at UNC Wilmington, a year older than me, and wanted to work in New York after she graduated. “I care about you,” she told me on our last night together, “but you and I want different things. You could do so much more with your life, but for some reason, you’re content to simply ? oat along. ” She’d hesitated before going on. “But more than that, I never know how you really feel about me. ” I knew she was right. Soon after, she left on a plane without bothering to say good-bye. A year later, after getting her number from her parents, I called her and we talked for twenty minutes. She was engaged to an attorney, she told me, and would be married the following June. The phone call affected me more than I thought it would. It came on a day when I’d just been ? ed—again—and I went to console myself at Leroy’s, as always. The same crowd of losers was there, and I suddenly realized that I didn’t want to spend another pointless evening pretending that everything in my life was okay. Instead, I bought a six-pack of beer and went to sit on the beach. It was the ? rst time in years that I actually thought about what I was doing with my life, and I wondered whether I should take my dad’s advice and get a college degree. I’d been out of school for so long, though, that the idea felt foreign and ridiculous. Call it luck or bad luck, but right then two marines jogged by. Young and ? t, they radiated easy con? dence. If they could do it, I told myself, I could do it, too. I mulled it over for a couple of days, and in the end, my dad had something to do with my decision. Not that I talked to him about it, of course—we weren’t talking at all by then. I was walking toward the kitchen one night and saw him sitting at his desk, as always. But this time, I really studied him. His hair was mostly gone, and the little that was left had turned completely silver by his ears. He was nearing retirement, and I was struck by the notion that I had no right to keep letting him down after all he’d done for me. So I joined the military. My ? rst thought was that I’d join the DEAR JOHN 17 marines, since they were the guys I was most familiar with. Wrightsville Beach was always packed with jarheads from Camp Lejeune or Cherry Point, but when the time came, I picked the army. I ? gured I’d be handed a ri? e either way, but what really closed the deal was that the marines recruiter was having lunch when I swung by and wasn’t immediately available, while the army recruiter—whose of? e was right across the street—was. In the end, the decision felt more spontaneous than planned, but I signed on the dotted line for a four-year enlistment, and when the recruiter slapped my back and congratulated me as I went out the door, I found myself wondering what I’d gotten myself into. That was in late 1997, and I was twenty years old. Boot camp at Fort Benning was just as miserable as I thought it would be. The whole thing seemed designed to humiliate and brainwash us into following orders without question, no matter how stupid they might be, but I adapted more quickly than a lot of f the guys. Once I got through it, I chose the infantry. We spent the next few months doing a lot of simulations in places like Louisiana and good old Fort Bragg, where we basically learned the best ways to kill people and break things; and after a while, my unit, as part of the First Infantry Division—aka the Big Red One—was sent to Germany. I didn’t speak a word of German, but it didn’t matter, since pretty much everyone I dealt with spoke English. It was easy at ? rst, then army life set in. I spent seven lousy months in the Balkans—? rst in Macedonia in 1999, then in Kosovo, where I stayed until the late spring of 2000. Life in the army didn’t pay much, but considering there was no rent, no food expenses, and really nothing to spend my paychecks on even when I got them, I had money in the bank for the ? rst time. Not a lot, but enough. I spent my ? rst leave at home completely bored out of my mind. I spent my second leave in Las Vegas. One of my buddies had grown up there, and three of us crashed at his parents’ place. I blew through pretty much everything I’d saved. On my third leave, after coming back from Kosovo, I was desperately in need of a break and 18 Nicholas Sparks ecided to head back home, hoping the boredom of the visit would be enough to calm my mind. Because of the distance, my dad and I seldom talked on the phone, but he wrote me letters that were always postmarked on the ? rst of every month. They weren’t like the ones my buddies got from their moms or sisters or wives. Nothing too personal, nothing mushy, and never a word that suggested he missed me. Nor did he ever mention coins. Instead, he wrote about changes in the neighborhood and a lot about the weather; when I wrote to tell him about a pretty hairy ? e? ght I’d been in in the Balkans, he wrote back to say that he was glad I survived, but said no more about it. I knew by the way he phrased his response that he didn’t want to hear about the dangerous things I did. The fact that I was in peril frightened him, so I started omitting the scary stuff. Instead, I sent him letters about how guard duty was without a doubt the most boring job ever invented and that the only exciting thing to happen to me in weeks was trying to guess how many cigarettes the other guard would actually smoke in a single evening. My dad ended every letter with the promise that he would write again soon, and once again, the man didn’t let me down. He was, I’ve long since come to believe, a far better man than I’ll ever be. But I’d grown up in the previous three years. Yeah, I know, I’m a walking cliche—go in as a boy, come out as a man and all that. But everyone in the army is forced to grow up, especially if you’re in the infantry like me. You’re entrusted with equipment that costs a fortune, others put their trust in you, and if you screw up, the penalty is a lot more serious than being sent to bed without supper. Sure, there’s too much paperwork and boredom, and everyone smokes and can’t complete a sentence without cursing and has boxes of dirty magazines under his bed, and you have to answer to ROTC guys fresh out of college who think grunts like me have the IQs of Neanderthals; but you’re forced to learn the most important lesson in life, and that’s the fact that you have to live up to your responsibilities, and you’d better do it right. When DEAR JOHN 19 given an order, you can’t say no. It’s no exaggeration to say that lives are on the line. One wrong decision, and your buddy might die. It’s this fact that makes the army work. That’s the big mistake a lot of people make when they wonder how soldiers can put their lives on the line day after day or how they can ? ght for something they may not believe in. Not everyone does. I’ve worked with soldiers on all sides of the political spectrum; I’ve met some who hated the army and others who wanted to make it a career. I’ve met geniuses and idiots, but when all is said and done, we do what we do for one another. For friendship. Not for country, not for patriotism, not because we’re programmed killing machines, but because of the guy next to you. You ? ght for your friend, to keep him alive, and he ? ghts for you, and everything about the army is built on this simple premise. But like I said, I had changed. I went into the army as a smoker and almost coughed up a lung during boot camp, but unlike practically everyone else in my unit, I quit and hadn’t touched the things in over two years. I moderated my drinking to the point that one or two beers a week was suf? cient, and I might go a month without having any at all. My record was spotless. I’d been promoted from rivate to corporal and then, six months later, to sergeant, and I learned that I had an ability to lead. I’d led men in ? re? ghts, and my squad was involved in capturing one of the most notorious war criminals in the Balkans. My commanding of? cer recommended me for Of? cer Candidate School (OCS), and I was debating whether or not to become an of? cer, but that sometimes meant a desk job and even more paperwork, and I wasn’t sure I wanted that. Aside from sur? ng, I hadn’t exercised in years before I joined the service; by the time I took my third leave, I’d put on twenty pounds of muscle and cut the ? b from my belly. I spent most of my free time running, boxing, and weight lifting with Tony, a musclehead from New York who always shouted when he talked, swore that tequila was an aphrodisiac, and was far and 20 Nicholas Sparks away my best friend in the unit. He talked me into getting tattoos on both arms just like him, and with every passing day, the memory of who I once had been became more and more distant. I read a lot, too. In the army, you have a lot of time to read, and people trade books back and forth or sign them out from the library until the covers are practically worn away. I don’t want you to get the impression that I became a scholar, because I didn’t. I wasn’t into Chaucer or Proust or Dostoevsky or any of those other dead guys; I read mainly mysteries and thrillers and books by Stephen King, and I took a particular liking to Carl Hiaasen because his words ? owed easily and he always made me laugh. I couldn’t help but think that if schools had assigned these books in English class, we’d have a lot more readers in the world. Unlike my buddies, I shied away from any prospect of female companionship. Sounds weird, right? Prime of life, testosterone? led job—what could be more natural than searching for a little release with the help of a female? It wasn’t for me. Although some of the guys I knew dated and even married the locals while stationed in Wurzburg, I’d heard enough stories to know that those marriages seldom worked out. The military was hard on relationships in general—I’d seen enough divorces to know that—and while I wouldn’t have minded the company of someone special, it just never happened. Tony couldn’t understand it. “You gotta come with me,” he’d plead. “You never come. ” “I’m not in the mood. ” “How can you not be in the mood? Sabine swears her friend is gorgeous. Tall and blond, and she loves tequila. ” “Bring Don. I’m sure he’d like to go. ” “Castelow? No way. Sabine can’t stand him. ” I said nothing. “We’re just going to have a little fun. ” I shook my head, thinking that I’d rather be alone than revert to the kind of person I’d been, but I found myself wondering whether I would end up being as monkish as my dad. DEAR JOHN 21 Knowing he couldn’t change my mind, Tony didn’t bother hiding his disgust on his way out the door. “I just don’t get you sometimes. ” When my dad picked me up from the airport, he didn’t recognize me at ? st and almost jumped when I tapped him on the shoulder. He looked smaller than I remembered. Instead of offering a hug, he shook my hand and asked me about the ? ight, but neither of f us knew what to say next, so we wandered outside. It was odd and disorienting to be back at home, and I felt on edge, just like the last time I took leave. In the parking lot, as I tossed my gear in the trunk, I spotted on the back of his ancient Ford Escort a bumper sticker that told people to support our troops. I wasn’t sure exactly what that meant to my dad, but I was still glad to see it. At home, I stowed my gear in my old bedroom. Everything was where I remembered, right down to the dusty trophies on my shelf f and a hidden, half-empty bottle of Wild Turkey in the back of my underwear drawer. Same thing in the rest of the house. The blanket still covered the couch, the green refrigerator seemed to scream that it didn’t belong, and the television picked up only four blurry channels. Dad cooked spaghetti; Friday was always spaghetti. At dinner, we tried to talk. “It’s nice to be back,” I said. His smile was brief. “Good,” he responded. He took a drink of milk. At dinner, we always drank milk. He concentrated on his meal. “Do you remember Tony? ” I ventured. “I think I mentioned him in my letters. Anyway, get this—he thinks he’s in love. Her name’s Sabine, and she has a six-year-old daughter. I’ve warned him that it might not be such a good idea, but he isn’t listening. ” He carefully sprinkled Parmesan cheese over his food, making sure every spot had the perfect amount. “Oh,” he said. “Okay. ” After that, I ate and neither of us said anything. I drank some milk. I ate some more. The clock ticked on the wall. 22 Nicholas Sparks “I’ll bet you’re excited to be retiring this year,” I suggested. Just think, you can ? nally take a vacation, see the world. ” I almost said that he could come see me in Germany, but I didn’t. I knew he wouldn’t and didn’t want to put him on the spot. We twirled our noodles simultaneously as he seemed to ponder how best to respond. “I don’t know,” he ? nally said. I gave up trying to talk to him, and from then on the only sounds were those coming from our forks as they hit the plates. When we ? nished dinner, we went our separate ways. Exhausted from the ? ight, I headed off to bed, waking every hour the way I did back on base. By the time I stirred in the morning, my dad was off at work. I ate and read the paper, tried to contact a friend without success, then grabbed my surfboard from the garage and hitched my way to the beach. The waves weren’t great, but it didn’t matter. I hadn’t been on a board in three years and was rusty at ? rst, but even the little dribblers made me wish I had been stationed near the ocean. It was early June 2000, the temperature was already hot, and the water was refreshing. From my vantage point on my board, I could see folks moving their belongings into some of the homes just beyond the dunes. As I mentioned, Wrightsville Beach was always crowded with families who rented for a week or more, but occasionally college students from Chapel Hill or Raleigh did the same. It was the latter who interested me, and I noted a group of f coeds in bikinis taking their spots on the back deck of one of the houses near the pier. I watched them for a bit, appreciating the view, then caught another wave and spent the rest of the afternoon lost in my own little world. I thought about paying a visit to Leroy’s but ? gured that nothing or no one had changed except for me. Instead, I grabbed a bottle of f beer from the corner store and went to sit on the pier to enjoy the sunset. Most of the people ? shing had already begun clearing out, and the few who remained were cleaning their catch and tossing the discards in the water. In time, the color of the ocean began DEAR JOHN 23 changing from iron gray to orange, then yellow. In the breakers beyond the pier, I could see pelicans riding the backs of porpoises as they skimmed through the waves. I knew that the evening would bring the ? rst night of the full moon—my time in the ? eld made the realization almost instinctive. I wasn’t thinking about much of f anything, just sort of letting my mind wander. Believe me, meeting a girl was the last thing on my mind. That was when I saw her walking up the pier. Or rather, two of f them walking. One was tall and blond, the other an attractive brunette, both a little younger than me. College students, most likely. Both wore shorts and halters, and the brunette was carrying one of those big knit bags that people sometimes bring to the beach when they plan to stay for hours with the kids. I could hear them talking and laughing, sounding carefree and vacation-ready as they approached. Hey,” I called out when they were close. Not very smooth, and I can’t say I expected anything in response. The blonde proved me right. She took one glimpse at my surfboard and the beer in my hand and ignored me with a roll of her eyes. The brunette, however, surprised me. “Hiya, stranger,” she answered with a smile. She motioned toward my board. “I’ll bet the waves were great today. ” Her comment caught me off guard, and I heard an unexpected kindness in her words. She and her friend continued down to the end of the pier, and I found myself watching her as she leaned over the railing. I debated whether or not I should stroll over and introduce myself, then decided against it. They weren’t my type, or more accurately, I probably wasn’t theirs. I took a long pull on my beer, trying to ignore them. Try as I might, though, I couldn’t stop my gaze from drifting back to the brunette. I tried not to listen to what the two girls were saying, but the blonde had one of those voices impossible to ignore. She was talking endlessly about some guy named Brad and how much she loved him, and how her sorority was the best at UNC, 24 Nicholas Sparks nd the party they had at the end of the year was the best ever, and that the other should join next year, and that too many of her friends were hooking up with the worst kind of frat guys, and one of them even got pregnant, but it was her own fault since she’d been warned about the guy. The brunette didn’t say much—I couldn’t tell whether she was amused or bored by the conversation—but every now and then, she would laugh. Again, I heard something friendly and understanding in her voice, something akin to coming home, which I’ll admit made no sense at all. As I set aside my bottle of beer, I noticed that she’d placed her bag on the railing. They had been standing there for ten minutes or so before two guys started up the pier—frat guys, I guessed—wearing pink and orange Lacoste shirts over their knee-length Bermuda shorts. My ? rst thought was that one of these two must be the Brad that the blonde had been talking about. Both carried beers, and they grew furtive as they approached, as if intending to sneak up on the girls. More than likely the two girls wanted them there, and after a quick burst of surprise, complete with a scream and a couple of friendly slaps on the arm, they’d all head back together, laughing and giggling or doing whatever it was college couples did. It may have turned out that way, too, for the boys did just what I thought they would. As soon as they were close, they jumped at the girls with a yell; both girls shrieked and did the friendly slap thing. The guys hooted, and pink shirt spilled some of his beer. He leaned against the railing, near the bag, one leg over the other, his arms behind him. “Hey, we’re going to be starting the bon? re in a couple of minutes,” orange shirt said, putting his arms around the blonde. He kissed her neck. “You two ready to come back? ” “You ready? ” the blonde asked, looking at her friend. “Sure,” the brunette answered. Pink shirt pushed back from the railing, but somehow his hand must have hit the bag, because it slid, then tumbled over the edge. The splash sounded like a ? sh jumping. DEAR JOHN 25 “What was that? ” he asked, turning around. “My bag! ” the brunette gasped. “You knocked it off. ” “Sorry about that,” he said, not sounding particularly sorry. “My purse was in there! ” He frowned. “I said I’m sorry. ” “You’ve got to get it before it sinks! ” The frat brothers seemed frozen, and I knew neither of them had any intention of jumping in to get it. For one thing, they’d probably never ? d it, and then they’d have to swim all the way back to shore, something that wasn’t recommended when one had been drinking, as they obviously had been. I think the brunette read pink shirt’s expression as well, because I saw her put both hands on the upper rail and one foot on the bottom. “Don’t be dumb. It’s gone,” pink shirt declared, putting his hand on hers to stop her. “It’s too dangerous to jump. There might be sharks down there. It’s just a purse. I’ll buy you a new one. ” “I need that purse! It’s got all my money in there! ” It wasn’t any of my business, I knew. But all I could think as I leapt to my feet and rushed toward the edge of the pier was, Oh, what the hell. . . . …. Z…. Two suppose I should explain why I jumped into the waves to retrieve her bag. It wasn’t that I thought she would view me as some sort of hero, or because I wanted to impress her, or even because I cared in the slightest how much money she’d lost. It had to do with the genuineness of her smile and the warmth of her laugh. Even as I was plunging into the water, I knew how ridiculous my reaction was, but by then it was too late. I hit the water, went under, and popped to the surface. Four faces stared down at me from the railing. Pink shirt was de? nitely annoyed. “Where is it? ” I shouted up at them. “Right over there! ” the brunette shouted. “I think I can still see it. It’s going down. . . .” It took a minute to locate it in the deepening twilight, and the surge of the ocean was doing its best to drive me into the pier. I swam to the side, then held the bag above the water as best I could, despite the fact that it was already soaking. The waves made the swim back to shore less dif? cult than I’d feared, and every now and then I’d look up and see the four people following along with me. I ? nally felt bottom and trudged out of the surf. I shook the water from my hair, started up the sand, and met them halfway up the beach. I held out the bag. I DEAR JOHN 27 “Here you go. ” “Thank you,” the brunette said, and when her eyes met mine, I felt something click, like a key turning in a lock. Believe me, I’m no romantic, and while I’ve heard all about love at ? rst sight, I’ve never believed in it, and I still don’t. But even so, there was something there, something recognizably real, and I couldn’t look away. Up close, she was more beautiful than I’d ? st realized, but it had less to do with the way she looked than the way she was. It wasn’t just her slightly gap-toothed smile, it was the casual way she swiped at a loose strand of hair, the easy way she held herself. “You didn’t have to do that,” she said with something like wonder in her voice. “I would have gotten it. ” “I know. ” I nodded. “I saw you getting ready to jump. ” She tilted her head to the side. “But you felt an uncontrollable need to help a lady in distress? ” “Something like that. ” She evaluated my answer for a moment, then turned her attention to the bag. She began removing items—her wallet, sunglasses, visor, a tube of sunscreen—and handed them all to the blonde before wringing out the bag. “Your pictures got wet,” said the blonde, ? icking through the wallet. The brunette ignored her, continuing to wring one way and then the next. When she was ? nally satis? ed, she took back the items and reloaded her bag. “Thank you again,” she said. Her accent was different from that of eastern North Carolina, more of a twang, as if she’d grown up in the mountains near Boone or near the South Carolina border in the west. “No big deal,” I mumbled, but I didn’t move. Hey, maybe he wants a reward,” pink shirt broke in, his voice loud. She glanced at him, then back at me. “Do you want a reward? ” “No. ” I waved a hand. “Just glad to help. ” 28 Nicholas Sparks “I always knew chivalry wasn’t dead,” she proclaimed. I tried to detect a note of teasing, but I heard nothing in her tone to indicate that she was poking fun at me. Orange shirt gave me the once-over, noting my crew cut. “Are you in the marines? ” he asked. He tightened his arms around the blonde again. I shook my head. “I’m not one of the few or the proud. I wanted to be all that I could be, so I joined the army. The brunette laughed. Unlike my dad, she’d actually seen the commercials. “I’m Savannah,” she said. “Savannah Lynn Curtis. And these are Brad, Randy, and Susan. ” She held out her hand. “I’m John Tyree,” I said, taking it. Her hand was warm, velvety soft in places but callused in others. I was suddenly conscious of f how long it had been since I’d touched a woman. “Well, I feel like I should do something for you. ” “You don’t need to do anything. ” “Have you eaten? ” she asked, ignoring my comment. “We’re getting ready to have a cookout, and there’s plenty to go around. Would you like to join us? The guys traded glances. Pink-shirted Randy looked downright glum, and I’ll admit that made me feel better. Hey, maybe he wants a reward. What a putz. “Yeah, come on,” Brad ? nally added, sounding less than thrilled. “It’ll be fun. We’re renting the place next to the pier. ” He pointed to one of the houses on the beach, where half a dozen people lounged on the deck out back. Even though I had no desire to spend time with more frat brothers, Savannah smiled at me with such warmth that the words were out before I could stop them. “Sounds good. Let me go grab my board from the pier and I’ll be there in a bit. “We’ll meet you there,” Randy piped up. He took a step toward Savannah, but she ignored him. DEAR JOHN 29 “I’ll walk with you,” Savannah said, breaking away from the group. “It’s the least I can do. ” She adjusted the bag on her shoulder. “See you all in a few, okay? ” We started toward the dune, where the stairs would lead us up to the pier. Her friends lingered for a minute, but when she fell in step beside me, they slowly turned and began making their way down the beach. From the corner of my eye, I saw the blonde turn her head and glance our way from beneath Brad’s arm. Randy did too, sulking. I wasn’t sure that Savannah even noticed until we’d walked a few steps. “Susan probably thinks I’m crazy for doing this,” she said. “Doing what? ” “Walking with you. She thinks Randy’s perfect for me, and she’s been trying to get us together since we got here this afternoon. He’s been following me around all day. ” I nodded, unsure how to respond. In the distance, the moon, full and glowing, had begun its slow rise from the sea, and I saw Savannah staring at it. When the waves crashed and spilled, they ? ared silver, as if caught in a camera’s ? ash. We reached the pier. The railing was gritty with sand and salt, and the wood was weathered and beginning to splinter. The steps creaked as we ascended. “Where are you stationed? ” she asked. “In Germany. I’m home on leave for a couple of weeks to visit my dad. And you’re from the mountains, I take it? ” She glanced at me in surprise. “Lenoir. ” She studied me. “Let me guess, my accent, right? You think I sound like I’m from the sticks, don’t you. ” “Not at all. ” “Well, I am. From the sticks, I mean. I grew up on a ranch and everything. And yes, I know I have an accent, but I’ve been told that some people ? nd it charming. “Randy seemed to think so. ” It slipped out before I could catch myself. In the awkward silence, she ran a hand through her hair. 30 Nicholas Sparks “Randy seems like a nice young man,” she remarked after a bit, “but I don’t know him that well. I don’t really know most of the people in the house all that well, except for Tim and Susan. ” She waved a mosquito away. “You’ll meet Tim later. He’s a great guy. You’ll like him. Everybody does. ” “And you’re all down here on vacation for a week? ” “A month, actually—but no, it’s not really a vacation. We’re volunteering. You’ve heard of Habitat for Humanity, right? We’re down here to help build a couple of houses. My family’s been involved with it for years. ” Over her shoulder, the house seemed to be coming to life in the darkness. More people had materialized, the music had been turned up, and every now and then I could hear laughter. Brad, Susan, and Randy were already surrounded by a group of coeds drinking beer and looking less like do-gooders than college kids trolling for a good time and a chance to hook up with someone of f the opposite sex. She must have noticed my expression and followed my gaze. “We don’t start until Monday. They’ll ? d out soon enough that it’s not all fun and games. ” “I didn’t say anything. . . .” “You didn’t have to. But you’re right. For most of them, it’s their ? rst time working with Habitat, and they’re just doing it so they have something different to put on their resume when they graduate. They have no idea how much work is actually involved. In the end, though, all that matters is that the houses get built, and they will. They always do. ” “You’ve done this before? ” “Every summer since I was sixteen. I used to do it with our church, but when I went off to Chapel Hill, we started a group there. Well, actually, Tim started it. He’s from Lenoir, too. He just graduated and he’ll start on his master’s degree this fall. I’ve known him forever. Instead of spending the summer working odd jobs at home or doing internships, we thought we could offer students a chance to make a DEAR JOHN 31 difference. Everyone chips in for the house and pays their own expenses for the month, and we don’t charge anything for the labor we do on the houses. That’s why it was so important that I get my bag back. I wouldn’t have been able to eat all month. ” “I’m sure they wouldn’t have let you starve. “I know, but it wouldn’t be fair. They’re already doing something worthy, and that’s more than enough. ” I could feel my feet slipping in the sand. “Why Wilmington? ” I asked. “I mean, why come here to build houses, instead of somewhere like Lenoir or Raleigh? ” “Because of the beach. You know how people are. It’s hard enough to get students to volunteer their time for a month, but it’s easier if it’s in a place like this. And the more people you have, the more you can do. Thirty people signed up this year. ” I nodded, conscious of how close together we were walking. “And you graduated, too? “No, I’ll be a senior. And I’m majoring in special education, if f that’s your next question. ” “It was. ” “I ? gured. When you’re in college, that’s what everyone asks you. ” “Everyone asks me if I like being in the army. ” “Do you? ” “I don’t know. ” She laughed, and the sound was so melodic that I knew I wanted to hear it again. We reached the end of the pier, and I grabbed my board. I tossed the empty beer bottle into the garbage can, hearing it clank to the bottom. Stars were coming out overhead, and the lights from the houses outlined along the dunes reminded me of bright jack-o’-lanterns. Do you mind if I ask what led you to join the army? Given that you don’t know whether you like it, I mean. ” It took me a second to ? gure out how to answer that, and I 32 Nicholas Sparks shifted my surfboard to my other arm. “I think it’s safest to say that at the time, I needed to. ” She waited for me to add more, but when I didn’t, she simply nodded. “I’ll bet you’re glad to be back home for a little while,” she said. “Without a doubt. ” “I’ll bet your father is glad, too, huh? ” “I think so. ” “He is. I’m sure he’s very proud of you. ” “I hope so. ” “You sound like you’re not certain. “You’d have to meet my dad to understand. He’s not much of a talker. ” I could see the moonlight re? ected in her dark eyes, and her voice was soft when she spoke. “He doesn’t have to talk to be proud of you. He might be the kind of father who shows it in other ways. ” I thought about that, hoping it was true. While I considered it, there was a loud scream from the house, and I caught sight of a couple of coeds near the ? re. One of the guys had his arms wrapped around a girl and was pushing her forward; she was laughing and ? ghting him off. Brad and Susan were snuggling together nearby, but Randy had vanished. You said you don’t know most of the people you’ll be living with? ” She shook her head, her hair sweeping her shoulders. She swiped at another strand. “Not too well. We met most of them for the ? rst time at the sign-up, then again today when we got here. I mean, we might have seen each other around campus now and then, and I think a lot of them know each other already, but I don’t. Most of f them are in fraternities and sororities. I still live in a dorm. They’re a nice bunch, though. ” As she answered, I got the feeling she was the kind of person who would never say a bad thing about anyone. Her regard for others struck me as refreshing and mature, and yet, strangely, I wasn’t g , y , g y, DEAR JOHN 33 surprised. It was part of that inde? nable quality I’d sensed about her from the beginning, a manner that set her apart. “How old are you? ” I asked as we approached the house. “Twenty-one. I just had a birthday last month. You? ” “Twenty-three. Do you have brothers and sisters? ” “No. I was an only child. Just me and my folks. My parents still live in Lenoir, and they’re happy as clams after twenty-? ve years. Your turn. ” “The same. Except for me, it’s always been just me and my dad. I knew my answer would lead to a follow-up about the status of f my mother, but to my surprise, it didn’t come. Instead she asked, “Was he the one who taught you to surf? ” “No, I picked that up on my own when I was a kid. ” “You’re good. I was watching you earlier. You made it look so easy, graceful even. It made me wish I knew how. ” “I’d be happy to teach you if you want to learn,” I volunteered. “It’s not that hard. I’ll be out tomorrow. ” She stopped and ? xed her gaze on me. “Now, don’t make offers you’re not sure you intend to keep. ” She reached for my arm, leaving me speechless, then motioned toward the bon? e. “You ready to meet some people? ” I swallowed, feeling a sudden dryness in my throat, which was just about the strangest thing that had ever happened to me. The house was one of those big three-storied monsters with the garage on the bottom and probably six or seven bedrooms. A massive deck circled the main level; towels were slung over the railings, and I could hear the sound of multiple conversations coming from all directions. A grill stood on the deck, and I could smell the hot dogs and chicken cooking; the guy leaning over it was shirtless and wearing a do-rag, trying to come across as urban cool. It wasn’t working, but it did make me laugh. On the sand out front, the ? re was set into a pit, with several girls in oversize sweatshirts seated in chairs circling it, all pretending to 34 Nicholas Sparks be oblivious to the boys around them. Meanwhile, the guys stood just beyond them, looking as if they were trying to pose in a way that accentuated the size of their arms or sculpted abs and acting as if they didn’t notice the girls at all. I’d seen all this at Leroy’s before; educated or not, kids were still kids. They were in their early twenties, and lust was in the air. Throw in the beach and beer, and I could guess what would happen later; but I would be long gone by then. When Savannah and I drew near, she slowed before pointing. “How about over there, by the dune? ” she suggested. “Sure. ” We took a seat facing the ? re. A few of the other girls stared, checking out the new guy, before retreating into their conversations. Randy ? nally wandered toward the ? re with a beer, saw Savannah and me, and quickly turned his back, following the example of the girls. “Chicken or hot dog? ” she asked, seemingly oblivious to all of f this. “Chicken. ” “What do you want to drink? ” The ? elight made her look newly mysterious. “Whatever you’re having’s ? ne. Thanks. ” “I’ll be right back. ” She headed toward the steps, and I forced myself not to follow. Instead I walked toward the ? re, slipped off my shirt, and laid it over an empty chair, then returned to my seat. Glancing up, I saw do-rag ? irting with Savannah, felt a surge of tension, then turned away to get a better grip on things. I knew little about her and knew even less about what she thought of me. Besides, I had no desire to start something I couldn’t ? nish. I was leaving in a couple of weeks, and none of this would amount to anything. I told myself f all those things, and I think I partially convinced myself that I’d head home just as soon as I ?nished eating, when my thoughts were interrupted by the sight of someone approaching. Tall and lanky, DEAR JOHN 35 with dark hair that was already receding parted neatly to the side, he reminded me of those guys you met from time to time who looked mi

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